10 years ago today

It was 10 years ago today that I had a vision of the future

1. I was finally a mature adult. Growth at this point onward was a declining slope of weekly pills and Doctor visits. Being an old man sucks, but the mind stays about the same.
2. ...People knew me in this world as a professional student or hobbiyst. We have to stay busy some way...
3. My wife, yes I get married, was dominating everyone she knew in conversations with a smile and a quick wink of the eye. One day at a time, our love grew for each other.
4. ...My world had settled into a honeymoon of happy postures and strangers...

• Of course, none of this was meant to be. I push and push myself towards my fate, except I have no direction. My self-progression is a revolving door of Hell. Slowly, I get closer to being all alone. So, the depression kicks in and my journey becomes a personal one.

• The wild me wants to run away for a new fix. A new life. Maybe my subconcsious has some sick goal to see family and life another way, even though, old wounds lie in a deep sleep causing me to live in repeat.

 
The agressor inside, probably the most prominent part of me, still gives the world a smile with every challenge, question, and doubt. Finally, my younger hopeful side is drifting around. A little soul searching through space and time. Somehow, I feel a frown emerge from my wrinkly skin as I reflect on the pieces of me now. I dare not gaze an additional 10 years from now.  Emotions run deep and passions linger unguided as much as my willingness to absorb knowledge sustains me to the next day.

When the vision is over, my heat beats a bit more and my mind goes blank. What does it all mean? One thing is for sure, 10 years from now:

1. The Earth will still spin.
2. Dreams will shatter.
3. Paths will open and close.

My eye shut firmly and the dreams crumble...time is on my side. I think.