Chaotic love is so sweet

I was frozen when I woke up this morning. Something was missing... my name. Nothings changed, my life is still the same. The door opened and you creeped up into my heart. I locked you out of my life and you keep coming back. Despite my ignorance to your calls, I do not hate you. I want you. Why do I cry in the darkness of the night for a love such as you? The door knocks again and again. The tears fall down and soothe my aching heart. I love you. I want you. I hate you. I know life could be different with you. Our beautiful world is so close to completion. Please leave me alone. I do not want this dream anymore. I do not want you! I feel your temptations, my vibrations are out of control. Everyday I wait for your call. I hate you. I love you. I want you. We are complete. Leave me alone. Hit me, hate me. Love me. Can you help me? I am crying. I am dying.